Im very sad now.

How i wish everything was back to the beginning.
Im really feeling very sad now.I finally could not hold my emotions anymore.I broke down.I cried.
You was not the one which i hope could comfort me.It was my true friends who was there.
How can i have such a "good" taste?HA.How i wish that i had never knew you before.Like Joanne
said:Love is not a crime.But why do i feel so terrible?

How i wish everything could turn back to the time when i dont even know what is troubles & stress.
How i wish that my grandpa is still around me caring for me.I now truly know the meaning of this:You
will only know how to cherish the things around you only when you lose it.& till now,i still cant accept
the fact that,Grandpa,you are gone and never will come back again.Im so sorry for throwing tantrums at
you and being rude to you.Im so sorry!No use crying over spilt milk,i know.But i really cant control my
tears.& thanks for cooking all those scumptious food for sister & me.I love your warmth hand when you holded
my hand.& thanks for remembering that i always sneezes in the morning & bring me hankerchiefs.
I MISS YOU & I LOVE YOU GRANDPA!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

How i wish im back to primary one again.& i can have Grandpa by my side pampering me again.
I would rather sacrifice the years that i have walked till here than suffering now.Why must the both
of you make my life so miserable &torturing??!!Did i really brought it upon myself?Life seems to
be meaningless besides studying,eating & sleeping..It seems to be like im always the one entertaining
others?(Seriously,i dont wish to..How great would it be if its others is entertaining me. :( )

But i knew that in this realistic world theres nothing that can turn back time.Time only just keeps going on,
like how life keeps moving on.

No wonder i felt such a strong sad feeling that makes me wanted to cry real hard.Today is Grandpa's 3rd
anniversary.Whenever,i think about grandpa,it just makes me feel like crying.

Thanks to this ppl who comfort me when im feeling sad:Joanne Nv Er,Cymbeline & Letitia. ♥