2nd & 3rd

I've like been thinking abot so many things.
Memories and illusions are things which
makes me sad.I should not have think so
much.But i just cant help it.I just wanted
to give up what im wishing for now.Seems
easy but hard to do so.Memories will also
be always etched in my mind.Things didnt
turn out as i wanted it to be.Maybe feelings
cannot be forced & i have taken it for granted
so i couldnt accept the truth.But i still hope
that one fine day you would see through me
and know what i have been waiting for.It have
been like 1month ++ already i dont wish to keep
holding on to an empty vessel. ):

Maybe i have appeared like im strong or what,None
of you wanted to know the deeper of me?I have been
controlling my emotions,i may always seem to be happy
or crazy in school.It may not be the truth.Some of you

thinks that im appearing childish on the ouside and thinks that

i donno what is relationships.I also wish to express myself.

You dont know the inner me,how would you know if i know?

Still counting on,

6/05/09

I want to forget you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes i really hate you.WHY?

Cos i seems oblivious to you?I seems

like your stationery supplier?What exactly

do you treat me as??I know it is only

friend right? i did not express it too obvious?

But i really dont know how.Even if i confess,

i wil only be rejected. Cos i knew you dont

like me.Should have give up long time ago

.& now im exploding so..Can someone tell

me how to stop?Dishearten.